头痛の①天

25/9 ⑤

我的生活一天比一天废，无聊到绝顶！！！
每天都差不多天亮才睡，睡到明天的下午，然后，起身就看戏，看完戏就开电脑上线。。。
无无聊聊的就酱过了俩个星期的假期。。
>..<
昨天，他很白痴的叫我朋友叫我小心照顾自己。。
自己心想他有那么关心我吗？！
怎样都好，都很谢谢他的关心。。
昨夜我又失眠了，我不知道我到底想不开什么。。
就是有那么一回事，弄到我很烦恼，很不开心。。
甚至我还因为酱而失眠，几搞笑一下。。。
很辛苦的，到凌晨⑦点多才睡的着。。。
今天，睡到③点酱就起来。。。
其实我还没睡饱的，就因为MIC 打电话给我，才被他吵醒。。。
一如往常，起床，刷牙洗脸，吃喝，看戏，上线。。。
无聊。。。
傍晚，我跟mic 去跑步然后就去pm。。
过后就去喝茶，其实我不想去的，不过，都已经到了就进去。。
进到去就像傻婆一样。。静静不出声，我也开始头痛，不知怎么的。。
最后都不欢而散。。一整天只吃了一碗妈妈煮的asam laksa。。
不会觉得饿。。奇怪呢？！
他很容易扰乱我的心情，很开心他还关心我，可是，看到他，我就会变得闷闷不乐。。
超废材呐！！！
我不想那样，我还蛮后悔对他那么衰。。。
我真的很坏。。伤害了他。。
可能因为酱，我才会每次看到他都会闷闷不乐，觉得亏欠他。。
回头草，好吃吗？！
不过我想我不会那样。。 就是酱，弄到我要发疯啦！！！！！！！

病恹恹の我。。>..<

24/9 thurs



我很惨呐！！！

病了几天， 提不起劲来。。

haiz,...不想跟人聊天，也不想跟人接触。。

尽关闭自己在家。。好不容易等到他上线，希望他会找我。。

怎知，尽然慰问一下都没有，我看我要死了。。

在意到那么严重，>..<

将近一个星期没跟他聊，我的心情越来越糟，很不爽。。。

再来生病已经让我提不起劲叻。。

我还能怎么办。。

要怎样才可以让我忘记他。。。

要怎样才能让我回到像以前还没认识他之前的生活。。。

我很在意他，甚至连我的朋友跟他说话我都会妒忌我朋友。。。

还生气我朋友，不跟他说话。。

我这样做都不值得的。。

我永远都得不到回报，甚至还可能搞到自己要发疯，变傻婆。。

酱很不值得。。。我应该忘记所有，忘记一切。。。

但我觉得我做不到，这该怎么办才好，很烦恼也。。

现在为止，我已不懂我自己要些什么。。。

很矛盾，很烦恼，这些都是我自己拿来烦的...

刚才看他一直dc，心想他可能网络差，上不到线，等下就会上线。。

怎知，试了几次，他放弃了。。

我也放弃等他了，看来，今天都是没有等到他的慰问了。。。

很伤心呐。。

T..T

daryl's birthday party..

5/9/09 (sat)

2day gt skul e .. haiz.. eventhough is sat but stil have go for exam ..
yucks.. quite beh song.. >..<"
go early in the morning for study basic math.,.
so san fu read sai all.. but then ho .. when exam time..
1st quest ald sei liao .. i don noe how to do .. swt.. don noe wat quest lai d ..
haiz.. tat quest test b4 d when 1st test .. haiz .. tat time don neo how to do ...
now final e .. test again i also don noe how to do ..
swt.. im goin crazy ... =.="
a funny thing happened during exam is halfway of the exam suddenly no electric..lol..
after exam .. they all stil discussin the paper.. quite annoyin..
i dislike ppl discuss paper after exam .. it'll make me feel disgustin..
seen its ald over .. y stil need to talk again.. lol..
den we go for lunch .. all feel damn hungry after used too much of energy in doin math..
don noe how many brain cell ald said bb to me liao..>..<"
den talk ha talk ha ... feel like wanna go for movie .. and decide go 2ml which is sun , watch final destination..
back home.. its bout 6pm somethin..
im stil thinkin wanna go for daryl's party o nt.. haiz..
i've ald decide nt to go and sent msg to daryl apologize ald..
and then go slep .. but wai hong cal me .. swt..
he ask me go and comin fetch me.. lol..
den i wake up and go for it lo..
go thr .. same as last year d .. but nt tat much of ppl ald ... cos his secondary skul fren a lot absent ...
mayb he din inform them gua.. >..<"
havin fun wit them but nt tat close as last time ald.. >..<"
i quite rmb-ing the time when we was at secondary ..
it was happy and enjoyable.. nt like now..
all changed ald...
and he stil the same.. nt dare to talk with me.. i don noe y .. haiz..
bout 11pm somethin , jia min fetch me and yip back home..
others some go clubbin and some go bowling.. swt...
after i back home, i on9 and askin who goin 2ml movie ..
but nobody give respond and some of them no on9..
i feel bored ald and bo mood liao..
den straight a way go slep and don k of them ald..
i slept for 14 hours.. but also nt enaf..
=.="...

stop thinkin bout u liao la.. i beg u ..

2day morning wake up rush to college cos my pcd assign have done wrongly..
have to redo it ..
shu wen has help sme redo it and i appreciated it ..
thanks shu wen .. hehe ..
den... go basic math d class .. boring and almost nobody listen to him ..
pity the teacher ,...
we all at back busying our things..
some do pcd assign , play game and chatin ..=.="
not much ppl attend the lecture class 2day..
den pcd class again ... boring le..
i bcom no moood in study ald..
after pcd we all goin to library study .. konon-nya...
when i start doin past year , i bcom diam diam and bo mood ald ..
everytime also litat d wo..
haiz..
how could it be .. always emo and moody ..
my fren all afraid of me ald ...
im tryin my best not to be litat next time ..
jus havin fun wit them nia .. ntg geh ..
and i'll try my best to stop thinkin bout u ald ..
once i thinkin of u , im sufferin in the meantime..
to be honest.. i don wan to broke our frenship ..
so i've decide to just make ntg happened .. and be ur fren also ...
1 more thing .. the most disgusting had ever happened in my life...
im tryin my best to 4got tat things..
and god bless me ..
wish im gettin better and let time make my unhappy memories gone...
don ever let me to face such fcuk thing again in my life ...
im begging u ..thanks ..

buy new things.. bo $$ ald..

16/8/09 (sun)
morning wake up and go sg wang wit aunt and daphne..
buy a lot of thing..
at last i've bought my trouser...
hehe..
quite love it ...
ntg much to write ..
jus lazy nia.. and i found tat i cant put down my feelin on him..
i ald try my best to 4get bout him ..
but when i saw him again , i beh tahan again... lol..
wat happened on me oo..
sux le..
im tryin my best to be jus nice to u ...
but then don make me admire u again la..
i beg u .. jus give me a break ..
if cont like this ..
i think 1 of the day i'll beh tahan .. jus spread it out ....

2nd time watch movie and 1st time bowling

14 /8/09 (fri)
2day im goin to watch movie wit my college crazy fren...
bcos i have no koko , no it tutorial and eng class also change to tues ..
as result .. no need to skul 2day ..
den we all palnin go out wet ..
hehe..
morning , me ,u chern, and shu wen went to ts buy movie ticket 1st ..
den after tat we go sing k at neway..
1st time sing neway le..>.<"
vy song lo.. lol... 11am-2pm..
den we go watch movie at 230pm..
watch 大内密探零零狗。。quite funny and enjoy..
henry and shu wen sit next to me ..=.="
after finis watch we go play basketball game..XD..
vy song le, enjoy it ...
den ho ...
somebody planin go for bowling..
my 1st time play bowling neh...
i also gt little talent on it d...XD
ming hong and justin pro lo.. lol..
almost every game also full strike ..
after tat go mcd eat ...
enjoy a lot of fun and i love u all...
muacks~~

1st time watch movie wit u all....XD...

1/8
2day wake up tot upload it assign to safe assign..
but ho... who noe the system close ald ..
walao yeh .. damn beh song lo.. said 1/8 only dateline ..
but also haven 12am ald close tat system.. wtf..
den i go hospital c my dad.. suddenly feel he ald old ... pity him ..
den when on de way back home ....
henry sms me go watch movie at klcc...
den i go lo.. but then ho..
2dy don noe y the masjid jamek and bandaraya lrt station close ald..
wtf... make me bo mood ...
den cal u chern go wit her....
have a great movie wit them ...
we watch lost land... a funny movie , can enjoy it.. comedy also...but shiau bin most funny/...
XD...
really vy fun .. sit beside u chern and also shiau bin.. shiau bin damn funny lo ..
keep on put those action... >.<" ... swt..
den go back home ... sien again.. no ppl le...